Serious question please help

So I (15F) have recently discovered…my body, and I’m really embarrassed about it.
Every time I’m about to start one of my sessions I start to feel really embarrassed and ashamed but when I get those thoughts I like pee myself a little, the feeling of that makes me keep going and I spiral into embarrassment and shame and I keep going until my arms are sore. Now I tried talking to my dad about it because my mom passed away a few years back and he says I should just keep doing it and he’ll listen at my door to make sure I’m ok and safe and I can call for him in case I need his help.

Now this made me feel really safe and protected and I’ve started a routine of touching myself 3 times a day, once in the morning, once after school, and one more before is go to sleep.
Every time my dad cracks my door open and watches over me and I feel really safe and protected and I pee a bit every time.

Any way my question is: is it normal to pee yourself while you masturbate and is it normal to do it as many times a day as I do?