I realized long ago,when I started to be REALLy popular,that people were only here because of my FNAF work.
But then,my fans turned into haters,making my life a hell.
But now?
I am only known for the amount of hate I get.
A part of my watchers ARE NOT here for MY TALENT,OR FOR THE PERSON I AM.
People are only here for a specific reason.
And I REFUSE to draw Undertale,or any fandom I dont know or hate or dont like just to be popular.
I REFUSE to draw something that gets popularity(like Yaoi,Hentai,popular shippings ect…)
Listen here.I draw what I WANT.I have the rights to REFUSE certain commisions,especially if :
-It’s a shipping I don’t like.
-If you dare tell me what to do(like drawing with a certain style ect…)
That’s just disgusting.People DARE tell me how to do my fucking job.
If you want a commission,that means you want me to draw your characters in MY style,so dont fucking tell me what to do.Or else fuck off and go see someone else.
I just did commissions,and its like nobody cares.I know some of you dont have points.
But may I remind you that I have more than a thousand watchers?
That I actually feel like if i’m at the begining of my DA account?
I feel like I actually have 10 watchers.
Because almost nobody reacts.
I want to do fictions/fanfictions,frame animations,casting calls…just to be close to you and show you what I love and want to do!
Haha,don’t make me laugh.To be honest?I dont have the motivation to do so,because I do not get positive comments.I dont get any : “Keep up the good work!”,”Good job!”,”I wanna see more!” ect…Anything good artists and popular artists get.And if some of you think that I’m lazy,then you’re wrong.It’s just that NO ONE gives me the motivation to.
I admit that I am depressed,that I have bad mood swings.I know I’m lazy.But do you think I’ll get better with a silent DA profil?!
Don’t you think that I want to quit DA and restart?!
And don’t go like : “No please don’t leave” blablabla…
Because that’s exaclty whats happening!!
Everytime I say I want to leave or anything,THAT’S WHEN I GET COMMENTS LIKE A STORM.
That’s when everyone comes.
And guess what it does!! It gives me an Attention whore reputation!!
And I can almost say thanks to you.But I dont think this,because I love my watchers and fans.
i wanted to do a Patreon account,so I could get a small help or not,I dont know.
I know my art is shit,I know I cant draw good.But is this a reason why?
I try my best to draw anatomy perfectly,but I always draw this in a horrible way.
But without getting any good things from DA,I don’t want to progess.
I admit,I dont want to do more.I have no determination.Why should I draw and kill my ass to draw better if actually nobody gives a fucking shit?!
Like i said,I feel like I only have 10 watchers.
So yeah.Don’t go and say that I’m not grateful for what I have.
My dream of being a popular artist,my 9 year old dream…HAHA.It’s breaking itself in a fucking million pieces.
Seeing my dreams being destroyed doesnt give me the determination to continu.
I dont want to continu.Not like this.
So either you are here for who I am,or either you are here just for a specific reason.
If you are here for me and my art then thank you so much.
If you are here for a specific reason,then fuck off.
I want to know who is here for ME and MY STYLE,don’t fucking lie,I will know it if you lie.
You know what I wanted to do?
Make t-shirts.Yep,I wanted to do my own t-shirts line,that means I could do InesTheLostAngel fan t-shirts or commissioned t-shirts.
For this I will do a special page,and a Paypal account for a tshirt line.
But really?NOPE.
I won’t ever do t-shirts line.Because I dont think I will sell any fucking t-shirts because almost none of my watchers are grateful that I do stuff for you.
I understand you guys don’t have points or money.But don’t you think that making me feel positive of my work will MAYBE help me more?
You know what,I have enough of this shit.
I feel like no one is grateful.
And dont go now like : “But we love you” or any shit like this.
I know who I can believe in,I know one of my senpais does care about me and did made me feel good about myself.
But now?I feel like I’m just a used doll who is only here to draw what people want.
Call me whatever the fuck you want.
Call me a bitch,attention whore ect…
You still will put as spam.
That’s it.I’m done.If I leave,you’ll know why.I’M DONE.