This relationship this friendship in my building it’s all fucked up I give all attention to her and always be there for her but if she is not getting interest to talk to me I can’t do anything I can’t just force her to talk to me leave that thing my family there think I don’t do hard work i am a failure ok I am but I tried my best and I always get good marks but still they say I don’t try my best in functions they always talk about my cousin sisters good no one talks about me I just sit in cornet and see people talking about my sisters it hurts more if I just jump from the building and do suside no one will care after some days they Will also forgot what happened and who am. I am always a ghost front of u people, front of my friends and family specially my girlfriend she does not even care about me I always try to look happy front of u guys and talk shit things like I spend time with her but na I try to keep my self happy at that point and not to be depressed I always tried to keep my self happy but I could not always I be happy I think about this and be sad again my parents think I I am always happy na I cry under my blanket every night ik after I told u this u will think I am a kid always crying but it hurts more