hello again. i feel terrible, and this is the 3rd or 4th time i’ve relapsed. i’m so overwhelmed by work and just life itself and i tel people i need a break but they never listen. i haven’t slept in 3 days, and haven’t eaten a full meal in almost a week. i have constant dysphoria, especially with my chest. during school, i keep getting overwhelmed with sensory things and i just stop functioning, and then my teachers notice and call me lazy, and constantly yell to get back to work. i’ve tried telling my family but all my siblings do is make fun of me for it, and my parents are arguing over it. i’m the only person that keeps things together, but that causes so so much of my stress and anxiety. i also have some sort of an undiagnosed mental illness and it severely affects the way i function, and that only makes things worse. i’ve been crying myself to sleep for the past few days because i keep losing friends, and also my tics have gotten way worse. most of the time i have to force food into my body and force myself to sleep, even with melatonin, but that only makes things worse, and i don’t know what to do. i’ve only been getting worse, no matter what i try. i feel like everything i do is letting people down, and i’m a people pleasure, so that makes the situation even worse than it already is.