I get you. I wish i was raised as a girl, doing girl things, instead of a boy that gets taught how to shoot and how to chop wood. I would be more close to my mom, I would have learned to have nice handwriting, pushed towards being a good student and to learn humanities. I probably would have never been beaten up bloody on the streets, and probably not have choked a kid purple. maybe I would not be so fucking *angry* at all times. I would not have shouting matches with my dad, I would have had more physical contact that didn’t involve trying to beat someone into submission. God, I would have been so beautiful. I would have learned how to put makeup, how to dress. I would have had more than 5 t-shirts and 2 jeans for my whole high-school. I wouldn’t be the one to help my grandpa handle cattle even though I was afraid of the bull.
But now? at almost 30, my jaded hairy ass? I wouldn’t switch into a girl if given the chance. that train has long sailed.