I went into her room and said, “Look at all of your kids, including me — we are all lazy and fat. We haven’t achieved shit in life and no ‘LEGACY’ for the family name will be left behind”.

Then she said it’s not too late to change things. She went on and said how my oldest sister is now pregnant, yet complains about her job. I then said that I don’t want to do anything with my life. I just want to sit in my room and be unproductive. I also said life is of no value to me.

Then my mother got angry and tried to make me feel guilty by saying, “When I die, you and your sisters will regret not listening to me about working hard and studying”. She also talked about how my father died and left us. I then replied and said, “Yes, he left us and died! That is life. We will all die too. And when you die, me and the girls(my sisters) will sell the house we live in, then split the money and recklessly blow all the money”. I then laughed because I found it hilariously funny.

I also told my mom that she is the one who decided to have me, and I didn’t ask to be brought into this world — then my mother got upset at me and said, “How can I dare say that!” but I didn’t give a shit because what I said was the truth. I then started walking out of her room laughing at her. I laughed at her because she thinks life is important, while I don’t give a flying fuck about life. She can shove that natalist mindset up her fucking ass. I say this as a person who was bullied at school, was brainwashed into religion, got overfed therefore has been fat for 99% of my life and experienced suffering like other antinatalists in various forms.

I don’t want to write about what I’ve suffered through, cause that is pointless as we antinatalists have all suffered. I am 20yrs old now.Luckily, I and my family have an estate that we can sell if my mother dies anytime soon; then I would get my split of the money when the house is sold, splurge a bit of it then kill myself. I was raised with that bullshit natalist belief, that you should care about life and pleasing people; but now I don’t give a flying fuck. When I muster up enough will-power to commit suicide, I will die before my mother hopefully so she can see I didn’t give a shit about life and her silly natalist values.

Note my mother isn’t sick or anything; she was just saying “when she dies…” to guilt trip me. She thought I’d get sad when she said my dad died, as if I could of done shit about it to prevent it. She must go fuck herself. What she says has no power over me. How silly of her to use fear of her dying and my father’s death to force me to be a slave in this society and work. The fact she used fear, goes to show that life is truly a shit deal LOL Also, glad to say I became atheist in 2015 and my mom knows I don’t believe in her bullshit christianity anymore. She can follow her old-fashioned ways alone. She isn’t even a disciplined christian like most christian hypocrites.

Below is a whatsapp conversation I had with her, after the argument:

Me – Getting upset over the truth 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 [22:59, 1/3/2017]: Those things you say about you dying or daddy being dead, don’t make me feel bad at all. We all dying, biologically speaking, from the moment we are born(google that). You trying to use fear to make me feel bad, when you say you are going to die or how daddy died. I don’t value life like you do. I don’t even care if I died tomorrow, because I’d be dead.

I don’t want to spend my whole life chasing the wind, having kids, getting married, paying taxes just for the sake of it. You know I am too smart to go through that. That’s why I won’t have kids, cause I don’t want to inflict that on them like you did on me

[23:02, 1/3/2017]: You say we are too comfortable as if it is a bad thing, but we didn’t ask to be brought into this world and then stress about making money. 12yrs of school, then study mindlessly for years and I wouldn’t even be guaranteed a high paying job
[23:13, 1/3/2017]: This is why I have repeatedly told you, that I wouldn’t want a burial and tombstone when I die. I’d just want to be cremated and have my ashes thrown in the dustbin. Because I realize life is useless. Rather take that tombstone money, funeral money, and use it on something for the living. These funerals are just for the living, but the dead don’t give a shit because they are dead. Funerals help people who are still alive deal with death, but I don’t even see the point of funerals. LOL, it should return to the olden days whereby when someone dies; we just leave them dead there as they are😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

Mom – I hear you.

Me – I’m not even upset or sad at you.😜(I actually was upset but was laughing at her, cause I offended her with the truth)

Mom – Yes, I am also not upset.

Me – I am just extremely glad I will die one day. I don’t enjoy life like these joyful simpletons😂😂😂😂😂. I read a lot and am more aware about life than the average individual, that is why i won’t have kids cause i see life is full of suffering and pointlessness.

Mom – I respect your views.

Me – Don’t feel completely bad for having kids, because everyone who is born is raised with the mindset that they should kids or get married. Feel a bit bad, but not too bad😂😂😂😂. Even if I was a billionaire, I still wouldn’t have kids; so don’t take it personally. Even If I was born to bill gates, i still wouldn’t have kids.

Mom – But you make me feel bad and stupid for having kids. You make me feel like an idot who wasn’t thinking.

Me – 😂😂😂😂 Don’t feel too bad for having kids, because we are all biologically programmed to have kids. Even animals have kids. That is why antinatalism is avoiding reproduction, so as not to impregnate anyone. I am dead serious about not having kids; it is my belief system. I don’t completely blame you cause in your time, you didn’t have the internet to be exposed to different views.

But keep in mind, the reality is most people don’t give it rational thought when they have kids; cause it is programmed by millions of years of evolution. google it and see for yourself.

Mom – Yes, most people don’t give it rational thought like you have. I understand your point and I wish we also thought like you in our time.

Me – Yes, at least you understand now. Thanks. Yes, but you couldn’t of done anything about it because you were also born without your consent; so the same crime is committed to all of us who are born. You know I back my core beliefs with logic; I don’t just follow something for the sake of it.

Our ancestors were brought into this world without their consent. Every living thing was brought into this world without its consent, from the beginning of time. It’s more a problem with human nature and how we are programmed. Everyone alive must realize this so suffering comes to an end.