I’m 18 and my girlfriend is 19. We’ve been together for 7 months now and she’s my very first girlfriend. We never really did anything sexual until now because she wasn’t ready which was okay with me. Anyway, last weekend we agreed on having sex for the first time and she said she wanted to give me a bj but when she saw my penis, she literally said ‘ew what is that?’ and had a very disgusted look on her face and asked me to put my clothes back on. I know that I am her first boyfriend too so obviously this is new to her as well but her reaction kind of hurt me. I’ve never had sex before and I was looking forward to having it with her and I was expecting everything but this kind of reaction. Anyway, long story short, she said she won’t have sex with me because she thinks my dick looks ‘weird’ and ‘not what she was expecting bc it’s unc*t’ We ended up doing nothing that day and she left my place. She didn’t reply to my messages for 2 days and then I tried to talk to her about it but she’s just being distant and clearly doesn’t want to talk to me. Which is weird because we never had any other problems in our relationship before.
I am pretty upset about it. I mean I never had any self-image issues up until now but now I’m wondering whether there’s something horribly wrong with my penis. I never thought it looked weird. It’s just not cir cumcised. But we’re both from Europe and where we live, less than 5% of men are based on the statistics so it’s not weird here.
Just to mention, I am definitely clean, I take showers 2 times a day and I wash it all the time and I spent extra time making sure it was clean and smelled okay before that day because I knew we were gonna have sex. So that can’t be an issue. I don’t know what her issue is. I don’t know what to do but I feel terrible about myself now. I’m not even sure if I want to have sex with her anymore. I feel like I don’t ever want to have sex with anyone anymore. What should I do? I don’t wanna breakup with her but idk what to do. 🙁

Edit: Wow I didn’t expect that much attention but thank you guys for making me feel better. I’m not sure what I’m gonna do yet regarding the relationship. I’ll have to think it through but thank you anyway, I definitely feel a little better about myself now.