I snuck out last Friday and spent the whole walk having a fucking existential crisis because of how deep our connection goes and how the potential ramifications of this could affect me and him for the rest of our lives. Accompanied by Twin Fantasy Mirror To Mirror, I made the approach to his house where he met me and we made it to his backyard and subsequently his shed. We had been talking for about ten minutes prior to arrival so as soon as we got in it happened really fast. First came my shirt, then I just kind of pulled of my pants and underwear and sat down on some random chair. He took of his shirt and then pants as well, and we just kind of sat there for a few minutes until I told him he could do whatever he wanted, which prompted him to come over and start giving me a handjob. It was really grounded in reality, like it felt like I wasn’t clouded by any emotion and it was just kinda… happening. I was somewhat erect at first but as it slowly progressed I got less and less so. After what must have been ten minutes he just stopped we just put our clothes back on and sat in silence for the longest ten minute of my life