I found my wife’s dildo and honestly it and other things make me feel really insecure

So I want to preface this by saying I’m not opposed to toys in the bedroom but that being said she did not tell me about this one and keeps it hidden from the others. If I wasn’t looking for something specific under our bed I probably wouldn’t have ever found the box it was in or known it existed.

So another thing that’s odd is it’s appearance. It is the biggest, fattest and blackest cock I have ever seen. It’s incredibly detailed too. It looks real from a distance and is clearly not a cheap one. I want to preface this by saying I don’t care that it’s black but this is the stereotypical BBC porn cock. It’s massive and while I am a decent size this thing dwarfs me and I am a LOT smaller than it.

I think the thing that bothers me the most is not that she has it but that it’s a secret kept in a special wooden box under her side of the bed with a small half empty container of lube so in addition to it’s location I can assume she uses it sometimes.

This is also the same woman who “wasn’t comfortable” with me wanting to buy a pocket pussy which honestly kind of pissed me off because we own a couple vibrators we use during sex for her to get off since she can’t finish without one (believe me I’ve tried) and now finding her secret dildo honestly makes me pretty mad when she didn’t want me to get a pocket pussy to try.

We’re definitely going to be talking about this when she gets home from work. (I had today off) I’m literally just going to sit down on my chair with the dildo on the table next to me when she gets home and we’ll get to the bottom of this.